I am linking up with Five Minute Friday where we are given a weekly word prompt and we set a timer and write. This weeks prompt is DESIGN.
Grateful, Grief, Laughter, Being Thankful Out Loud FMF Designing My Own Attitude for 2021
Finding Gods design for my life
During 2020 grief has been something that a lot of us are familiar with . Thanks to the Covid-19 Pandemic more folks are struggling with mental health issues than ever before. Grief especially reared its ugly head at folks around the holidays. Missing loved ones, feeling isolated and alone. Throw in some political chaos and it is no wonder folks are stressed to the max.
I often find myself feeling like I am spinning in circles with a million tabs open in my brain. I am finding that if I stop trying to push God will show me what he wants me to do with my life. I truly feel he has shown me the direction he wants me to go as far as my work for him is to work with foster children.
When we started fostering It felt right like God had given it his seal of approval. That is not to say that there are not many frustrating, exhausting days. Days when I doubt myself. Days when I doubt my ability or desire to do this. Those negative voices though are normal human doubts. When I step away from the emotions and look at things more rationally I know this is what God wants me to do.
Sometimes I find I tend to push away the negative feelings of grief or sadness by all the busyness in my head. Trying to keep busy and not think or feel.
My head is often on overload with too many tabs open in my brain. Those old negative thoughts coming back to try to bring me down again.
It is pretty loud inside my head.
#BeTheDifference in 2021
“Quiet people have the loudest minds”~ Stephen King
I need to learn to quiet my brain, mind and sit with my feelings. Trying to push them away makes them come roaring back louder than ever. I need to learn to deal with them and move on instead of trying to escape them. Or trying to make so much busyness in my life and mind that I don’t have room for the negative feelings.
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