TESTIMONY
I am linking up with Five Minute Friday
This week’s FMF writing prompt is: TESTIMONY
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When I think of the word testimony it reminds me of when I was younger and at Sunday School or church camp the leaders were asking for testimony. I didn’t want to speak up. Not because I was ashamed but because I am not comfortable speaking in crowds or in front of people. Secondary I always felt everyone else’s testimonies were so much more than.
More than. Opposite of how I felt I was. I felt less than. I don’t know why or where it started but my self esteem kept me from ever feeling like I was as good as or as smart as anyone else. The good news is that I’ve been taught that in the end that won’t matter.
But I really wish those yukky emotions would just go away. Even now as an adult I struggle. I see others writing and wish my writing is as good as theirs. Out socially and seeing clusters of people wonder why I don’t fit in. Well I guess I just gave my testimony. Not the testimony of when I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior.
This is the testimony of how I have always felt the struggle to fit in. Thanks to my thoughts and feelings. I am working on changing to more positive thinking but it doesn’t happen over night after years of negativity.
Why I started my blog was to write about my experiences and hope that somehow I could help someone else. Use my testimony of my trials to bring light into someone else’s darkness.
I can totally relate to your write up. I was shy too as young girl infant I would say I was hesitant to speak in public. And same thoughts used to bother me as of would speak what would other people think of me. It has to be perfect. But trust me now as a young lady i have overcome my fear of public speaking.
And thanks a lot for sharing